More often than not, I'd preferred to blog about happy stuff, funny stuff, frustrating yet funny stuff - all that genre of stuff. However, the contribution for this post is not at all happy nor funny. It is derived from pure frustration and flabbergast-ation (if there exists such a word) over the doings of people.

How on earth can I not be flabbergasted and distraught when over the last few months so much effort has been put into a project (which I'd initially figured worth saving) only to see it end in the drain owing to no consensus ad idem?

At the end of the day, I can only conclude that humans are just plain selfish - they only want to cater to their own needs/wants. Just as I viewed all their decisions as selfish, they, the decision-makers, must have equally considered our opinions (my and those with me along my road) on this security project as being selfish too. And both parties feeling that their views are justified, albeit on opposite poles, whilst working towards the same objective and ends - no solution :'(

Now I can begin to understand why the righteous man who had initiated this whole scheme had decided once and for all to pull out and stay away from it all. What is unjustifiable in my opinion is not the decisions that were arrived at and ever-changing, but that the method employed in such changes was unacceptable - it was done too unilaterally, with absolute discretion of the decision makers without reference to those on the front lines or the affected. This would be ubiquitous in the extreme, even if they hide behind the realm of kindness of doing "voluntary" "good" work for all to see.

This exercise of power does not rest well with those affected, least of all me (although I am considered part of the team but to a large extent was on the discovery channel on finding out about changes). Given that changes had to be made, it has to be done in the proper manner and forum so that it does not give rise to the basis for complaints or grouses.

I truly cannot see how such a system can survive, nor am I willing to be made a "voluntary" stooge in the middle ground, stupidly doing front line ground work whilst in the dark of decisions made and changed by the upper rung of decision makers and facing up to the affected people without an inkling of when, how or why these changes were made.

Still, keeping my purpose and principle intact, to always look at the brighter side, I am glad for having met some of those nice and wonderful neighbours I have, for making some friends along the way, for getting to know the good and the not so good, and most of all for having made the attempt and having done my best.

A: All these people didn't have any complaints before this project, now suddenly all these problems crop up and become part of our problems......bleh bleh..
B: Before this project, no one has to pay anything for it, so how can they complain??

***peace from ahfun***